Day 86

Do you hear that? That’s the sound of me being relieved. I’ve been beside myself upset for so long over something I couldn’t talk to you all about until tonight. My husband’s cousin Natalie had her wedding shower today. I’ve known her and her sisters for 20 years. I love them all like they are my very own blood-related cousins. Part of my joy at getting my wig was knowing that I’d look okay for her wedding and wedding-related events, then along came this surgery. At first I was due to be operated on on Friday, March 18th with my dressings scheduled to be removed on Wednesday, March 23rd so I was supposed to be in the clear to attend the shower, then my surgery was moved to Monday, March 21st. My dressings won’t be removed until Wednesday, March 30th rendering me unable to attend the shower. I was heartbroken.

We don’t have any kids so to me these kids are like my kids. I’m so excited for Natalie. She has a job she loves and she’s marrying a man she loves so very much. This is such a wonderful time in her life and I wanted so much to be a part of it. I’ve been beside myself since last week when I found out that my surgery was going to move. I held out hope that I’d be able to finagle a way to wrap my head up and look somewhat normal but that just wasn’t to be. Regretfully I had to let her sister Chrissy know that I was unable to attend the shower. I felt awful. Add to that with all that’s been going on in recent weeks I didn’t get around to purchasing anything from her registry before most or all items were bought. I know Natalie loves coffee and the hubs suggested buying her a Keurig coffee maker. I didn’t see a coffee maker on her registry and wasn’t sure if she had one already.

Tonight I finally got to tell Natalie how sorry I was that I could not be at the shower and ask her if she wanted a coffee maker. She does and so I ordered her the aforementioned Keurig. Natalie and Chrissy have both been so gracious about my missing the shower. I’m so relieved that I finally got to ask about the coffee maker and get Natalie’s gift sent. For the first time in weeks I’m not upset.

Congratulations Natalie I wish you and John a lifetime of love and happiness.

With love,

~ Carol Anne