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365 Days of Carol Anne (Learning to Love Myself)

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Day 106

It’s been a nice day today. We had a yummy lunch from Duffield’s and spent most of the day catching up on DVR shows. I watched Alice in Wonderland later in the day. I’ve never read the book. I’m going to buy it tomorrow. Anybody want to read along? Reply in the comments. I’ve always wanted to be part of a book club.

I want to say thank you to everyone who offered kind words in response to last night’s post. They are very much appreciated.

With love,

~ Carol Anne

365 Days of Carol Anne (Learning to Love Myself)

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Day 105

I’m in a weird place tonight. I’m so blessed, my life is filled with amazing beautiful kind people. My family has been nothing short of amazing. My friends, some of whom I haven’t seen in 20 years, came out of the woodwork to support me. My parents’ neighbors offered love and prayers. Former coworkers offered their love and support. People I’ve never met and may never will, prayed for me. Yet tonight I can’t get the few who weren’t there for me out of my head. I’m hurt and disappointed and confused. I know it’s petty and small and vain and egotistical of me, but God forgive me it’s where I am tonight. I’m sorry.

Thank you all for stopping by everyday to read and comment. I love you all.

Love,

~ Carol Anne

365 Days of Carol Anne (Learning to Love Myself)

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Day 104

Carol Anne Meets the Easter Bunny

I met the Easter Bunny today. *laughs* No, really. I met the Easter Bunny. Don’t look at me like that. No, I haven’t been secretly swallowing handfuls of Percoct. I was on a field trip with my sister-in-law’s daycare to Duffield’s Farm. We went on a hayride to the Easter Bunny’s house, where he gave out chocolate to all the little girls and boys who found 4 eggs.

I had such a good time. It was wonderful to get out in the beautiful sunshine and spend time with my sister-in-law. She asked me to come out of the goodness of her heart to give me something to do. A few days after she asked me I decided it would be good to earn my keep so I asked if she’d like me to take photos with my good camera. She thought that was a great idea and so today I was official picture taker. I don’t usually take photos of people so this was a first for me. I’m quite happy with how a good deal of the photos turned out. I would never post photos of other people’s children on the Internet without their permission so unfortunately I can’t share any with you.

I had a great time today. It was the most alive and engaged I’ve felt in a very long time.  I’m exhausted and contented and pleased with my first pretend “photo shoot”. My face has a little color and I’m happy. I hope you are too.

Thanks for stopping by every day to read and comment. I love you all.

Love,

~ Carol Anne

365 Days of Carol Anne (Learning to Love Myself)

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Day 103

It’s a chilly night and I’m all cuddly warm wrapped up in my favorite pink blankie and red and white polka dot cozy socks. I feel good and calm and at peace tonight.

My appointment with the Plastic Surgeon went very well. She is very pleased with the progress of my healing. My Oncologist e-mailed her and Dr. Matthews is okay with my sim taking place next week and as long as my healing continues as is she’s also okay with me starting my radiation treatments as Dr. Hughes sees fit. So as best I can estimate I’ll probably start my treatments in about 2 weeks. I have to be back to see Dr. Matthews in mid May so she can check on my progress.

Thank you for all the prayers and good wishes. I love you all. Things are moving forward. I’m scared, but relieved to finally be moving forward.

Love,

~ Carol Anne