Greetings from my couch! It’s day 15 and I’m taking a break from watching The Social Network to post today’s pic. Today was my day to go get my monthly CAT scan. I just didn’t want to today. I didn’t feel like getting up early. I didn’t feel like showering right away. I didn’t feel like fasting until after the CAT scan. I wanted to lounge around the house and eat waffles for breakfast. I didn’t want to go have dye shot into my arm while a machine took pictures of brain. Some days I’m better at facing up to life than others. This morning was not one of my better days.
After we got to the place it was a longer wait than usual, which only served to make me more anxious. Once they finally called me to have my CAT scan the technician couldn’t get a vein in my one arm so she had to go to the other arm. She told me I was probably dehydrated. Ummm, well it wasn’t my idea to fast for 3 hours before the head CT with contrast. My appointment was at 10am so that pretty much meant that I hadn’t had anything to eat or drink since around midnight. *sigh* Then to make matters worse I had to sit around and wait to see if the CAT scan came out alright because she thought that the machine stalled skipped briefly while the scan was going on. Thankfully the scan came out okay and so off we went to the pretzel company and Liscio’s Pizza to pick up lunch (pretzels) and dinner (pizza @ Liscio’s).
After lunch and some time relaxing at home the hubs took me to the park to take pics and visit the duck pond at the park down the road. It was overcast again but this time I brought my telephoto lens and I think I got a few good shots of the ducks. Check back tomorrow to see duck pics and more!
~ Carol Anne
As I sit here posting this pic Stacy & Clinton are telling some poor woman that if she never wants to date again she should wear the sweatshirt of hers that they are holding. It says something to the effect of cats and books this is life. You know this is the kind of thing that makes me furious. No wonder girls are starving themselves. I know that there’s something to taking care of yourself and looking good but seriously not everyone’s a glamour girl. So what if she likes cats and books? I like cats and books.
Girls if you’re reading this be who you are. Don’t spend your life chasing your tails. Don’t spend your life trying to be who you are not. There’s someone out there for everyone and wouldn’t you rather be loved for who you actually are and not some version of yourself. Love yourself it’s important.
Today is day 13 of Learning to Love Myself and exactly 3 months after my surgery. I’m feeling stronger and less tired. I woke up Monday feeling refreshed and not exhausted after a long day out, which was a nice change. I had an appointment with the plastic surgeon yesterday. The wounds are healing nicely and should be done healing in the next couple of months. The biggest news of the day was I’m now healed enough to start radiation treatments. I have an appointment for a CAT scan on Saturday and then another follow up with the neurosurgeon the following Friday. It’s at this appointment the cancer treatment cycle will begin. Dr. Bussey’s office will coordinate with the oncologist for my cancer treatments. I know this is the beginning of the end of it (hopefully) and that I should be excited to move forward but I’m scared.