So here I am trying to decide where I go from where and who I want to be. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking and the person I want to be is the fun, free, social little girl I started out as.
I don’t think I ever really learned now to really and truly be myself. While I was still very young
— I made myself small —
— I made myself unburdensome —
— I made myself quiet —
— I made myself conform —
— I made myself invisible —
To be the little girl who sang “Tomorrow” for the neighbors.
I want to be the little girl who wanted to try out for the talent show.
I want to be the little who wanted to take dancing lessons without fear of the recital.
I want to be the young girl who volunteered to cantor 8th grade graduation mass.
Where do I find that child?
How do I get her back?
How do I tell her that voice in her ear telling her not to be seen or heard was wrong?
How do I tell her it’s okay to be seen and heard?
How do I tell her it’s okay to shine?
How do I tell her she’s as good as she thinks she is?