Hey! Good evening my dear little lambs. It’s a delightfully chilly September night and if I read Google News correctly the Phillies are officially in the playoffs.
I had a peaceful Zen-ish type day today. The weather was in the process of changing from hot and muggy to cool and breezy so there was a nice break in the heat and humidity. I’m feeling good physically and mentally and am back up and running in terms of taking care of the house and laundry and such, which makes me feel useful. I had a nice afternoon out with my friend Roe this week that included cream donuts and tomato pie so that bolstered my spirits too. I feel like I’m starting to live again.
Sunday was 11 months since this all began and 10 months since I received a goodie bag full of wonderful items from my friend Angel. In it was a strawberry candle. I burned it almost every morning for at least a little while from the time I received it. I started lighting it before my parents came to sit with me and keep me company and then when they no longer needed to come I kept lighting it in the morning, which gave me sense of continuity. Since then it’s become my morning ritual, my constant. Today, 10 months later I burned it for the last time. Remarkably I wasn’t sad. It felt like a good end.
I’m not sure if that makes sense. I guess what I’m saying is it offered me an indication of how far I’ve come. While I was out with my friend Roe on Wednesday I think I saw the candle I’m going to buy for my mornings, Yankee Candle Vanilla Cupcake. I think I’ll buy it this weekend when I go back to Bed, Bath & Beyond with my $5 coupon to buy my large spiced pumpkin candle for the fall.
I believe I mentioned today’s weather at the beginning of tonight’s blog. By dinner time the weather had finished changing and so it was chilly and a bit breezy with some light rain. I’d finished cleaning and had already taken my shower so I felt accomplished and clean. As I went about my 7pm chores I thought to myself, “Thank you God for a warm house, food to eat, a husband I love and who loves me, kitties I love and who I think love me, family and friends to love and be loved by.” It felt like a blessing.
So tonight here’s to burned down candles, family and friends and changing seasons.
Thank you so much for stopping by every day to visit. I love you all.
With much love and great affection,
~ Carol Anne