Day 247

I’m here. I’m sitting on the floor watching Snowy sleep in his kitty bed next to me, Chuck’s playing WOW over there at the table, and Cuppy is looking out the back window behind him. The air is on, I just wished a good friend happy birthday on Facebook and earlier this evening me and the hubs sat and ate dinner together at Taco Bell (don’t hate, you know it’s tasty) before spending time drinking coffee (he had tea) at Starbucks together.

I’m here. He’s here. The kitties are here. We have a roof over our heads and food in all of bellies, even the cats. I have family members who I love and who love me. I have friends who’ve shown me love and support. I have readers who read here every day. I am blessed beyond measure. Tonight I count my blessings because I can.

I just have to remember to breathe and for now put one foot in front of the other. Tomorrow is the unofficial last day of summer. Kids all over the country are going back to school on Tuesday. I too am going to go back to learning to drive and writing and exercising my brain. This wallowing, this feeling sorry for myself, this living in fear of the next test result has to stop. I can’t promise anything but I’m going to do my best to change the way I’ve been living since August 5th. I’ve had a month to be lost and scared and depressed and derailed. God willing it ends here.

Thanks for stopping by. I love and appreciate you all.

With much love and great affection,

~ Carol Anne