I’ve been less than chatty as of late. I don’t know why that is. I don’t have any medical news to report. I don’t have news of any sort to report really. It’s been a rough couple of weeks. I’m not sleeping well, I haven’t studied my drivers’ manual at all, I haven’t written much, I never got around to the Suddenly September piece. I don’t know. This being at loose ends is hard. I think I’m feeling lost.
August started with the big appointment with the neurosurgeon and ended with an earthquake and hurricane in the same week and in between there’s been not much else. We cleaned the house up a bit this week and that always makes me feel good. I spent a good deal of this evening chatting about politics and I always love that.
Last weekend we stopped for breakfast at McDonald’s while we were out running last minute errands so we could be in all weekend during the hurricane. I enjoyed eating breakfast out (we normally don’t) and just spending time together running around trying to find D batteries. I thought it was fun. It was like our own little adventure. This week I spent Wednesday out with my friend Roe. We had lunch at the Pop Shop, got matching Pop Shop mugs with our ice cream and shopped a bit. I bought a little light up pumpkin for my desk. It was a wonderful day. Today the hubs got home early from work. I had the fireplace playing on the DVD player, a candle burning, the house was/is nice and cozy. We had pancakes for dinner. We watched Countdown with Keith Olbermann. Everyone I love is where they are supposed to be tonight even the cats are curled up in the living room with us tonight.
All these things make me happy. There’s plenty of politics I could be ranting and raving about here. I don’t know why I’m not myself. I don’t know why I’ve abandoned all my creative endeavors and learning to drive. I haven’t taken many pictures either. I have to get myself together. I have to start sleeping at night. I have to stop making up for the missing night’s sleep during the day. I need to focus. I need to pull myself together again.
My friends Angel and Lynn are working on crocheting projects right now. I can do the basic stitch but not much else. I am considering joining them in their crafty adventures but then I wonder if that would just become another distraction from writing and taking photographs. I’m floundering. Help! What do you do to center yourself? How do you find your focus again? How do you pull yourself together?
Thank you for sticking with me all 245 days so far. I love you all.
With Much Love & Great Affection,
~ Carol Anne ~