Day 187
I had a good day today. I have been released from my Plastic Surgeon’s care. She thinks my head looks good for just having completed radiation treatments and is very happy with how the skin graft areas held up. Thank God another leg of the journey comes to an end.
Even with that bit of good news I’m incredibly irritated and frustrated tonight. I don’t want to name names here but I heard by way of the grapevine that someone close to me told someone else close to me that I’ll never be the same. This makes me angry. I don’t think I’ve ever said that. I’ve had my moments, sure. But I think I’ve handled these last 9 months pretty well. I’ve had moments of anger and sadness and even a few moments of intense fear but never have I ever believed that I’ll never be the same. I was shamed to be told, “It’s up to you how happy you want to be.” *shakes head* Wow! Just wow. I’m hurt and bitter and embarrassed.
It’s almost time to hit the hay and my snuggly little Snowy Bug is laying on the couch next to me so I’m going to continue catching up on Jerseylicious and enjoy his cuddly company. Thanks for stopping by every day, I love you all.
With much love and great affection,
~ Carol Anne
it’s sad when someone you trust turns on you
{{hugs}}
and no…you won’t be the *same*
you are going to be better ;-)
(((hugs))) Thanks Angel.
it doesn’t matter what anyone says or thinks. You know how YOU think & feel so don’t feed into it. enjoy this milestone. I feel that you are one of the bravest people I know, you rock!!! Maybe it was taken out of context how it was said???
Thanks Roe! (((huggies)))
Hi,
Its too bad that something like that is being said. I think that you are the best barometer of what the rest of your life is going to be, its mostly up to you and seeing you as some defeated unhappy person is definitely not you. You are going to bounce back and if you aren’t the 100% you that you were, who cares, you will give it your all and you aren’t going to let yourself down.
Hugs
Suz
Thanks Suzy Q! (((hugs)))