Day 183
I have a confession to make. I just spent a few hours working on a post for Bloggy Summer Camp where I included some photos from high school when I had big hair. I didn’t have to include them I just thought they’d add a fun element to the post but I must confess I’m left feeling pretty sad about my hair tonight. It didn’t hit me until I opened Flickr to get tonight’s 365 Days photo and scrolled down the page of photos. I don’t know why it bothered me but it really did. It was kind of like being unexpectedly punched in the stomach. I had this moment of, “Damn. I’ll never look like that again.” No more cheesy perms or big hair for me. Um, not that I would ever try to replicate my look from the 80s but if I had hair at least the possibility would exist
I’m not even sure why it bothered me because truth-be-told and I’ve said this a million times, I never had nice hair (see Bloggy Summer Camp photos) and I figured getting nice hair (my wig) was the bonus for getting through all this. Since this project is meant to be my journey toward learning to love myself I figured that is what I should write about tonight.
I guess I don’t have much more to say than that tonight so I’ll say thanks for stopping by every day. I love you all.
Love,
~ Carol Anne
I can’t say I totally understand because I have not had that experience. I have a good feeling things will be better for you and sooner than later.Be patient. I am thinking and praying for you. I am more convinced that the hair donation was clearly the right thing to do. I will do it again as soon as possible. My adjustment to new hair is so minor…you have much to look forward to! Peace!
Thanks Suze!
FYI…Locksoflove.org for anyone thinking about it. sometimes a change is good. mine was. My HS hair was BIG too, Carol Anne.
You are beautiful, hair or none.
My friend just beat finished her chemotherapy a few months ago – i thought maybe you’d like to read her journey – and maybe you could identify with it? She is so positive during the entire thing, i think it would make you happy on your down days as well. I hope you do like it. http://www.kristalbreastcancer.blogspot.com/
I’m visiting from #commenthour (better late than never!)
Bug, thanks for stopping by. I just stopped by to read your blog. I’m curious. What does “smug-married” mean?