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  1. Barbara

    Hey Carol Anne,

    You don’t seem immature, bratty, bitchy or a sore loser. I can’t even begin to imagine what it’s like to go through what you’re going through but given that the whole experience is a very scary thing, it seems like things like machines breaking (wth?!) would seriously impact any frame of mind that you’d previously been able to get into. I mean, you prepared yourself for this part of the journey and were ready for it – and this changes that.

    I’m glad you’re going to plod along for Chuck, who sounds completely awesome. Who needs enthusiasm, anyway? :)

    It seems like it would be natural to feel how you’re feeling so please don’t feel bad about it.

    Do tread that water, even though it’s exhausting. The current will still take you a little closer to the goal.

    –Barbara/@ThisBarbara

    • Carol Anne

      Thank you Barbara. Barbara, Rachel, Angel and SC, thank you all for your kind words and thoughtful replies. Each of you helped lift a very big burden off my shoulders with those words. I’d been upset and feeling beaten down and wasn’t handling it well but felt that it wasn’t okay for me to lose my mind get upset. Each of your reassuring messages allowed me to lift that burden and allow myself to be angry and upset without guilt. Thank you. These messages helped me to turn my week around and face things with a better attitude. (((big warm hugs))) (I’m cutting and pasting this so each of you get a reply)

    • Carol Anne

      Thank you Angel. Barbara, Rachel, Angel and SC, thank you all for your kind words and thoughtful replies. Each of you helped lift a very big burden off my shoulders with those words. I’d been upset and feeling beaten down and wasn’t handling it well but felt that it wasn’t okay for me to lose my mind get upset. Each of your reassuring messages allowed me to lift that burden and allow myself to be angry and upset without guilt. Thank you. These messages helped me to turn my week around and face things with a better attitude. (((big warm hugs))) (I’m cutting and pasting this so each of you get a reply)

  2. Rachel Rogers

    I can honestly say that I love Barbara and Angel’s words. You do not have to face everyday with a smile on your lips and a song in your heart. You have been through and are still going through a very trying time. Chuck and the kids are a very good reason to go on, but then again YOU are a very excellent reason to go on too!! You are a very special wonderful person who fails to give herself credit for the impact that you have on the people around you! Have a rough day….Have 12 rough days…..you are still here and I am grateful for that miracle!

    I would tell you to kick the damn radiation machine, but we don’t want them to break anymore….lol. I know that not much is going to make you feel better right now. Just know that you are loved by so many. Long distance Hugs, my friend.

    Rach

    • Carol Anne

      Thank you Rachel. Barbara, Rachel, Angel and SC, thank you all for your kind words and thoughtful replies. Each of you helped lift a very big burden off my shoulders with those words. I’d been upset and feeling beaten down and wasn’t handling it well but felt that it wasn’t okay for me to lose my mind get upset. Each of your reassuring messages allowed me to lift that burden and allow myself to be angry and upset without guilt. Thank you. These messages helped me to turn my week around and face things with a better attitude. (((big warm hugs))) (I’m cutting and pasting this so each of you get a reply)

  3. SC

    Are you kidding me? I have been surprised at your positivity and the gracious way you handle everything. If it were me I’d be a sulky, impossible, irrational bitch the whole time! So you haven’t faced each day with a smile- who ever has, regardless of circumstances, let alone when obstacles are put in your way. One foot in front of the other works well but sometimes you may trip- but you’ll still get to your destination. (And you won’t sink- too many people are around you to pull you back up.) So get up, say screw this day, this sucks, but still go and do what you have got to do. Maybe tomorrow will bring a smile.

    • Carol Anne

      Thank you SC. Barbara, Rachel, Angel and SC, thank you all for your kind words and thoughtful replies. Each of you helped lift a very big burden off my shoulders with those words. I’d been upset and feeling beaten down and wasn’t handling it well but felt that it wasn’t okay for me to lose my mind get upset. Each of your reassuring messages allowed me to lift that burden and allow myself to be angry and upset without guilt. Thank you. These messages helped me to turn my week around and face things with a better attitude. (((big warm hugs))) (I’m cutting and pasting this so each of you get a reply)

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