Day 159

20 treatments down, 10 to go!

I’m 2/3rds of the way through or .666666667th of the way through. I’m also 3/5ths of the way through. My last radiation treatment is scheduled for 2 weeks from today.

I’ve been counting the days but in the back of my head I cannot rid myself of the nagging worry that I’ll get to the end of all this and the cancer won’t be gone. I want to invite people to maybe have breakfast with me on my last day but I can’t bring myself to bring it up to anyone. I’ll see my Oncologist, Dr. Hughes on Friday and I’ll ask her what sort of tests need to be done at the end and if June 22 is a day for celebration or just an ending point for these treatments.

I’ve been reading all these cancer blogs and the Fight Like a Girl Club website and so so many Twitter accounts and everyone talks about kicking cancer’s ass and fighting like a girl but I can’t bring myself to be that cocky. I show up every day for my treatments and I do as my doctors tell me to but I in no way feel like I’m kicking ass or fighting like a girl or anyone else other than myself. I’m just chugging along like the (not so) little cancer patient who could.

Thank you so much for stopping by every day. I love you all. I appreciate your love and support. You guys mean the world to me. (((big group hug)))

With great love and very much affection,

~ Carol Anne ~