19 treatments down, 11 to go!
I survived the first of two long appointments this week. It was nowhere near as bad as I had built it up to be. In fact I’ve released Chuck from his obligation to accompany me on Thursday instead of his normal Friday. I can’t say this enough, it’s the people taking care of you that make all the difference. I didn’t feel comfortable with that first Oncologist. I never felt he had my best interests at heart. Nothing could be further from the truth about my new Oncologist. She makes me feel safe and calm and comfortable and I have faith in her.
I went in today so anxious and my fears were relieved. I couldn’t get the thought of being on the table for so long and in the mask for so long out of my head. I was channeling the fear from those first days. Once I actually got going I was in a better frame of mind. The radiation therapists Jillian and Lauren talked to me the whole time and Donna and Dr. Hughes talked to me while they were in the room.
Today and Thursday are so they can set things up to narrow the area they are treating. My dosage stays the same and my treatment area shrinks. Jillian explained the blocks to me in a way that I could understand. She described them as puzzle pieces and showed me when I sat up after my treatment and planning.
I’d told Denna about Soapboxville a few weeks ago and today I found myself talking about my little spot on the web with Lauren and Jillian and Patricia. I’ve never actually had the opportunity to talk about this site or this project to anyone in person. It was both surreal and amazing.
My appointment was over early enough that we were able to stop at the Olive Garden for an early dinner before Chuck had to be home to do some work from home at 6pm. It was probably the best meal we’ve had since my treatments started. Yummy! There’s nothing like a good bowl of spaghetti. We took the kitties for a walk and then settled in for the night. All in all a much better day than I anticipated. Thank you all for your prayers and good wishes.
Thanks for stopping by every day. I love you all.
With great affection and much love,
~ Carol Anne