Day 80
(Today’s photo is of me looking little rough. It’s below the update if you want to read but don’t want to look.)
It was a rough day today. We had to be at the hospital by 7:45am and I never went to sleep so I was up when the alarm went off. I got up, showered and dressed for the day. It was pouring this morning and we were on the road at the height of rush hour in a steady pouring rain. I freaked out in the car on the ride over begging Chuck to take me home and never pulled myself together. I cried in the waiting room, the holding room and the surgical waiting room. Everyone was very nice to me, the nurses, the anesthesiologist, Jared (my favorite plastic surgery guy) and Dr. Matthews. The anesthesiologist gave me something to calm me down but even that didn’t work for me. It wasn’t until I was actually knocked out for surgery that I was calm.
The surgery went well, Dr. Matthews said that she was able to do what she set out to do, she needed to extend the graft a little bit because the titanium plate was starting to be visible. I’m exhausted, the hubs is exhausted but I’m not in any pain. I haven’t taken any pain medicine since I’ve been home. I have to take Bactrim again for two weeks. I have a follow up appointment with Dr. Matthews next week to have the dressing removed (it’s stitched on) and the stitches taken out then we go from there.
Thanks for coming by every day to read. I love you all. If you see Chuck be sure to give him a hug. He had a rough day too. He’s my heroic caretaker and supporter and cheering section.
Love,
~ me ~
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I started this project as an honest look at myself. That said, I’ve had some nights where I’ve offered you shots of my feet or my eyes or even a piece of notebook paper. I’ve thought and though about what to do today and for the days that follow. Tonight I’m sharing this photo because I’m here, I’m typing to you and I’m okay enough to have deep thoughts about this project. One of my biggest fears in all of this is not knowing what to expect. I hope by sharing my experience I’ll help someone else know that even though it’s scary you can get through it and perhaps offer them some comfort by giving them an idea of what to expect.
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I look remarkably like a Snork* :-)
* For those who don’t know what a Snork is
I’m glad everything went well with you today! Been thinking of you all day and wondered how you were hold up. You said they stitched the dressing to your head?! Ouch! BTW, thanks for including the link to the Snork! Never heard of them! LOL {{Hugs and Prayers}}
Jeannie, thank for the thoughts and prayers. How are you doing? What’s next for you after last week’s surgery?
Carol, I just want you to know that your in my thoughts & prayers everyday.
Thank you Pina. All prayers are welcome and appreciated. It means a lot to me especially to see my friends that I’ve not seen in years come out of the woodwork to love and support me. You guys humble and amaze me. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.
I love you and I am so proud of you. You do not give yourself enough credit for your remarkable strength. You are such an amazing woman. i love that you have Chuck by your side through this whole thing. He is such an amazing man. Good egg indeed.
Oh and to find humor enough to liken yourself to a Snork? #1 I love that you remember the Snorks! #2 You do not look like a Snork….lol!! You are a beautiful soul with such a kind heart!!
You will get through this one day at a time with the love and support of those around you. Saying a prayer for you everyday my sweet Glitter Sis!!! Hugs!!
Rachel, I’m not sure I could make it without Chuck by my side. I’m so fortunate to have him here to love and take care of me. Thank you for all of your prayers and kind words. (((hugs)))
Hi there,
Can’t say that I know what a snork is but if you are one I think they must be kind , caring and absolutely loveable people. So very glad that you are done with this, you looked your absolute fear right in the eye and look you did it and got through it and now you are home and hopefully another step to the road to recovery. For years you always told me you had a “big head” remember, you sure are dressing it up quite a bit lately. Little LOL. Anyway not you can rest and think of all the good blessings in your life and all that you have yet to receive.
Love ya,
Suz
Suz, I didn’t so much as look it in the eye as I went weepily toward my assumed doom. Even the meds the anesthesiologist gave me didn’t calm me down. If it weren’t for Chuck I’d have backed out for sure. I count my blessings daily. I’m so fortunate to be surrounded by so much love. (((hugs)))
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Angel, (((more huggles)))
*hugs* It doesn’t matter how you got through it, just that you did. Well done to both you and Chuck. I hope you both can breathe easier and get a good night’s sleep now. I thought of you all day long, I gain more strength from you than you realise. And I am so proud of you for putting up the photo- and to be honest from my own selfish point of view it lets me see that you’re okay. (And you don’t look like a snork!)
Thanks SC and you should know that it’s you that I gain strength from. You girls mean the world to me. (((hugs)))
I LOVE THAT YOU CALL YOUR BLOG LEARNING TO LOVE MYSELF. I’M GUESSING YOU NOW KNOW HOW MANY PPL LOVE YOU! AND IM GLAD EVERYTHING THAT SURGERY WENT GOOD FOR YOU. WE ALL HAVE OUR OWN BREAK DOWNS NOW AND THEN, I THINK THEY MAKE US STRONGER! AND IF MY HUBBY WASN’T STANDING RIGHT THERE BESIDE ME, I WOULDN’T HAVE THE STRENGTH TO GO THRU WHAT I HAVE BEEN THRU! WE ARE TRULY BLESSED TO HAVE SUCH GREAT MEN STANDING BY OUR SIDE! THANK GOD FOR THEM! NOW I HOPE THAT U HAVE THE WEIGHT OF YOUR SURGERY IS NOW OFF YOUR SHOULDERS!! NOW GET SOME REST AND GET BETTER!! I LOVE YOU!! (((HUGS))) JUST REMEMBER THIS GOD WONT GIVE YOU NOTHING YOU CAN’T HANDLE!! THAT’S ONE OF THOSE WORDS OF WISDOM THAT MY GRANDMOTHER GAVE ALL US KIDS!!
Thanks Jenn. (((hugs))) Yes, we are so blessed to have good men and good families to stand by us.