I’m anxious tonight. The pre-admission testing folks from the hospital. I had to go over my medical history over the phone. I’ll get a phone call tomorrow some time between 4pm-7pm with information as to what time I should report to the hospital on Monday. I’m a nervous wreck. I asked if I’d need a breathing tube for the surgery and she couldn’t answer me. She said to ask my anesthesiologist the day of the surgery. I’m so afraid. I wish I could just have a local. I’m afraid of going to sleep and not waking up. I’m afraid of the breathing tube. I’m afraid of waking up in the hospital 5 days later with no memory of those 5 days. It’s supposed to be an hour-long surgery and I’m supposed to come home the same night.
I know it’s apples and oranges, but all this talk of the radiation in Japan and the risks of exposure is freaking me out. The news keeps comparing the exposure to numbers of x-rays (10,000) and CAT scans (250). I’ve had at least 8 CAT scans and 1 MRI since October and I still have the actual radiation treatments to face. I’m anxious and afraid and I don’t feel like talking about it tonight so I’m going to end here.
Thanks for coming back every day to read. I love you all.
~ Carol Anne
*** Edited at 12:35am EDT Fri., March 18 to insert correct photo.***