Day 76
I’m anxious tonight. The pre-admission testing folks from the hospital. I had to go over my medical history over the phone. I’ll get a phone call tomorrow some time between 4pm-7pm with information as to what time I should report to the hospital on Monday. I’m a nervous wreck. I asked if I’d need a breathing tube for the surgery and she couldn’t answer me. She said to ask my anesthesiologist the day of the surgery. I’m so afraid. I wish I could just have a local. I’m afraid of going to sleep and not waking up. I’m afraid of the breathing tube. I’m afraid of waking up in the hospital 5 days later with no memory of those 5 days. It’s supposed to be an hour-long surgery and I’m supposed to come home the same night.
I know it’s apples and oranges, but all this talk of the radiation in Japan and the risks of exposure is freaking me out. The news keeps comparing the exposure to numbers of x-rays (10,000) and CAT scans (250). I’ve had at least 8 CAT scans and 1 MRI since October and I still have the actual radiation treatments to face. I’m anxious and afraid and I don’t feel like talking about it tonight so I’m going to end here.
Thanks for coming back every day to read. I love you all.
Love,
~ Carol Anne
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Aw hon. Wish there was something I could do or say to ease your fears. I have to be at the clinic tomorrow at 5:30 and exploratory surgery at 7:30. I’m afraid of the tubes and anesthesia also. Plus they’re going to remove 5-6 teeth. I’m going to be one hurting puppy tomorrow! I wish it were tomorrow night already and tomorrow morning would be over with! Hang in there, one day at a time! Will talk with you tomorrow night! {{HUGS}}
Jeannie, Good luck with your surgery. Ouch! Why are they removing the teeth? I’m scared of the dentist I’d almost rather be asleep for dental work. It’s the breathing tube that freaks me out. If they could do the surgery w/o it I’d feel much more comfortable. You’re in my prayers. I hope all goes well tomorrow.
I wish I had the gift of words that you do to reassure you. I can tell you over and over that it’s not the same, that it’s going to be okay but I can’t get you to believe what I feel. I will tell you though that no matter what time of the day or night I will direct every positive energy and every prayer your way to get you through. What was said by Jeannie is right- you’ll get through one step at a time. Sending out strength to both of you. *hugs*
Hi there,
All i can say is all you girls are aa bunch of brave gals. I need surgery but I am afraid to go for it. I hate hospitals and every time I go it turns out to not be a good experience so I try to just take care of myself my way and stay away from all the doctors I can.
I know there are times in life when there is no other choice and you have to go and I always think those people are so strong because they really have to be for their own good. Good for all of you looking out for yourselves to make yourself better. Wish I could be too. Bless each and every one of you and I hope you all have a happy healthy end to all that you are going through. I’ll be praying for all of you.
Hugs,
Suz
{{hugs}}
Thanks for the hugs girlie (Angel).